[caribou]

There were a few people that vouched for your change before your last unban so I’m genuinely curious about what’s different this time. It’s easy to say you’ve grown and learned alongside some beautiful people as you put it, but what’s your actual game plan moving forward? Do you have specific skills you can use to make sure you don’t end up harassing anyone again? If you ever feel the temptation to be unkind, are you willing to step back from the server, or do you think you might give in to that impulse again? I really believe having answers to these questions could help us all see how much your growth is genuine and whether it’s worth considering your unban again.

You're right it's definitely easier said than done, one of the reasons I got hostile was my inability to step back and take a break. My friends pointed out the unhealthy amount of hours I would put in whenever I played on the server. I noticed it too when playing more competitive games for longer periods of time, I would get more combative. I learned when to stop. I recently got eternity in marvel rivals and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have gotten that rank had I not taken breaks.

I don't blame anyone for doubting what I'm saying, I kept my circle small and close, and treated anyone who wasn't a close friend coldly. I don't usually talk about my personal life much but without tmi, here goes. I was self-isolating for a couple of years, rejecting any attempts at closeness aside from my cat. I moved to LA about a year ago and had to leave my cat and come out of my shell. Reintegrating back into society has been a journey, lowering the walls I had raised and accepting myself allowed me to accept others. Moving to a new country was a lot harder than I thought, and without growing I wouldn't have been able to survive. I couldn't stay antisocial, and with being more sociable came more empathy. The reason I felt the need to add in meeting people I've met online irl was because that too taught me a lesson. I didn't think any connection made online was really real, which added onto my apathy. However I was wrong, dinklebergers are people too......