[Scare Shot]

As I said, I wasn't going to lie in my report. I told you that I would deliver a non-biased report and I feel that I have done so.

- I told you exactly what had happened from start to finish and from the screenshots he provided I feel confident that those screenshots back up my explanation.
- I told you that I got quite heated and threw some verbal slurs, and from the screenshots you can also see that is true. You can also see it was evident that at the start of the situation I was simply conversing with him like he was just another player in the game, yes I referred to him as a sweaty nerd but that wasn't in a serious manner at all. Only to explain to him his in-game actions of how he was standing in front of me staring at my every move right in my face like a sweaty nerd. Trust me I've said worse in an explanation ;)

Do I understand that the latter half of this situation is not how you treat a staff member? Of course I do, I would never repeat this to any other moderator and the only reason this occurred is because this situation escalated to such an extent that I got very, very triggered. I felt disrespected so what do you think the person is going to get back?

As for the 'voice part' you guys are talking about, I remember it vividly and can relay exactly what happened.
I remember it well, the map had just changed, I had a minute or so to cool off so this is where I was more calm.
However, I was still agitated but I had cooled down to the point where I stopped using slurs.

http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/fi...=837340999
^That is where he 'threatens' to record me. Idk I wouldn't call it a threat and I don't see it as one but it's just something people say to be highly agitating like "Oh you're acting out of line I'm going to record you doing it!" like that does nothing but ramp up the agitation especially when I clearly feel he wasn't recording.

http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/fi...=837340847
^In this I'm asking him if he recorded what happened prior to this and trying to converse with him. And he calls it 'complaining' and wants to mute me again lol. Now do you understand how frustrating it was for me?

http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/fi...=837340712
^Here Lycan or somebody had unmuted me after I sat there muted not being able to play the round because I use the TTT_Radio and many text communications when I play (so that was a little aggravating because I felt I wasn't doing anything mute worthy at that point) and I calmly ask King in public chat how to go about reporting a test mod because I had no idea.

http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/fi...=837340276
^This is where things escalated because out of nowhere he started complaining about me in voice chat. His voice was a tad muffled so I didn't get the full of what he was saying something about being a mod and getting harassed. Rhapsody was in game maybe he heard. So I replied to his voice chat comments in a pm triggered to what he said basically summing up what I feel should happen to him for what occurred.

http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/fi...=837339961
^Again he mutes me for replying to his voice chat comments in pms. That really set me off and then it hit me.... why was he muting me this whole time when it doesn't even do anything to the situation but agitate me. At this point I'm very calm and collected, giving him advice as muting players won't stop them from using !p an asking him why he's still muting me.

http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/fi...=837339046
^After my first message in this he publicly announces over voice chat that I'm harassing him. Like cmon, really? Another form of triggering and I took the bait obviously. I have push to talk enabled and the sound goes through my MacBook built-in mic so I simply say "Wanna explain to everybody why you're muting me every time I message you?" and what does he do..... you guessed it, he says "Scare do I have to gag you too?" he gags me. This is where Bernardo steps in over voice chat and says something about respect towards a mod where Lycan (I said before I wasn't going to say who but it's in the screenshot) then offers some insight in the public chat on where he thinks (and where I think) respect for somebody should come from.

http://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/fi...=837338839
^And here is where I get kicked by the anonymous mod (who I now see was Colleen [sorry but I don't know who you are lol]). I'm not saying it was a false kick, but I just can't understand where you were coming from when you kicked me. But I believe there wasn't really much to kick me for if anything at that point...... I was very calm and Sea Burns was doing nothing but triggering me.

The biggest thing that pissed me off in all this was the fact that I've played this game for quite awhile now (probably over a year) I've settled into the community and apart from my nerdy in-game raging shenanigans (we all do it) I feel like I've built a good rep for myself. And when I get publicly humiliated where Sea Burns announces "Scare stop ghosting" when I'm not ghosting and then complains about me in voice chat. That's where I feel very attacked and obviously where I get triggered and feel the need to retaliate.

I hope this gives some insight as to where I'm coming from and there is the whole explanation or 'missing piece' that was the voice chat part of this.

I didn't expect this much attention to be brought to the situation but I just want to say I appreciate all of you pitching in with whatever input you all had. This is a great community and I'm going to be here for a long, long time.


p.s. Scoovie trust me I'd never dare try pull that shit on you or Christian ;) (but I wouldn't have to worry about having a reason to)