[d33r]

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 Nazu and I started dating in 2022 when I was 16 and they were 19. I continued to think I really loved them even going as far as calling them my wife. Even now I still can't help but think I'm making the wrong decision but this community has a right to know. I as well still feel stuck far behind in my past and I couldn't really figure out why, I thought I was happy. After getting unbanned from here though I partly realized I hadn't changed how i wanted to. I had got into a relationship with someone under the exact same reasons as other adults when I was young. I can't handle that thought now. 
I feel manipulated by them after looking back on our messages and certain events, Like how they've lied to this community, the backdoor, the bribes, and I don't think I can keep that to myself (Though I'm almost certain it was all talk). I don't think I should ever have.








I removed the more inappropriate screenshot, wasn't thinking fast enough. I hope to continue my journey into a better life, I don't feel well now.