[Damien1579]

Realistically bro, you’ve said you wouldn’t resign the past 10 staff apps. The majority of the server would not take you seriously in any kind of leadership position. You have also said you wouldn’t apply for staff multiple times after resignations. I think the majority of +1’s here (besides your friend) are from people that are unaware of past conflicts or are newer players. The server is in a good spot right now and making you staff is a step backwards. You are 99% of the time going to be a negative presence when dealing with issues as you have shown multiple times in the past. 

I had said that If I felt like resigning I would resign, that is what I said in the past and I never said I wouldn't resign again until these past apps. I'm not asking for a leadership position, I'm asking to handle reports and hand out warnings. People's opinions can change on things that they are adamant about and this is not exclusive to me, people change their opinions all the time. Saying that people that only +1 me that aren't my friends only +1 because they're unaware is a disingenuous statement in my opinion, my history is available on the forums/the discord and I don't shy away from it, I even talk about it with people who want to know. I don't think I was ever a negative presence in the staff team except for maybe the first time because I felt dejected after getting bullied by community leaders that I had respected and looked up to even when I was 15. I was made to feel unwelcome and I acted like I was unwelcome.

“I think just walking away from situations is the best approach.” aka “as soon as things get hard I’m going to shut down and leave.” You say you “fight for what is right in your eyes” but ignore any evidence or facts shown to you if you consider that person your friend. Every time you have a staff app up, you try to act a little more proper, be a little more active, and seem a little friendlier. As soon as it’s denied or closed, a switch flips until the next staff app and the cycle repeats. I think you can be funny and I don’t have any personal issues with you, but you should not be in a position of power. If you had “grown”, we would have seen it by staff app 11. 

I think you are misinterpreting what I am saying. I'm not saying that I'm going to shut down and leave, I'm saying that I am just not going to get myself involved in situations that won't need my involvement or need my input. I never ignored any evidence, I was told by a friend I thought I could trust that a person was being a weirdo and when screenshots were shared they were taken out of context. The evidence was provided by an untrustworthy person who misrepresented the truth, and it's my bad to have believed that person. Generally you are going to have an inherent bias when a friend tells you something is happening with someone you have neutral or negative opinions about, it's human nature.

Everyone acts proper when applying for staff, why is that a negative towards me? 9/10 staff apps have people acting better than they normally would because it's generally good to have a better attitude or "act proper" when applying for a staff rank in an online community. This is just a thing everyone does lol.