[d33r]

I want to clarify my "why".

What I originally wrote in my "why" was just to give my view on why I don't enjoy the gameplay presented. I don't care how you play, I'm not trying to "regulate" anything either. I don't have "gripes" either with any people or the server. I've made many staff apps and I didn't really know what else to say for "why", it's always seemed I've had trouble on how to word it as every time I feel like I'm being put on trial just because of my illiteracy. So I just presented why I don't enjoy playing the game and why I feel more pressure in having to be a normal player Which yes I understand that you don't need staff to not be a "normal player", though I still feel pressured against doing nothing. I will feel like I shouldn't be there as if I am wasting a player slot. This is just an anxiety I'm unable to shake. Then giving my examples of what makes the game stressful to me yet still trying to show that I do enjoy this community and will still be here practically anytime. I never meant for it to feel like I was throwing shade or targeting a group of players. I'm sorry if it has.

Unrelated to developing and what I currently do for the community. I still want to strive for more, especially without a job at the moment I have more free time then I can waste. So I'll be on the server regardless most of the time. Plus when I staffed Mafia TTT I enjoyed doing reports, I find it therapeutic to do so. Staffing Gun Game and several Deathrun servers also wasn't ever stressful for me. I've handled the position easily in the past I don't see why it should be any different now.

So I want staff because I enjoy helping everyway I can. I care about keeping a enjoyable environment and I care about setting a good example for the future I wish to bring.