[tiefling lesbian]

Mostly replying to what involves me personally for now, will let others respond to their parts and wait until they've read before responding to the rest of the application bits as it was not in fact my sole decision, the reasons given were a culmination of both community and admin team sentiment.

"Staffing out of obligation will only burn you out faster."
Once again this is just projecting what you think onto me. I obviously am not you nor do I know you. That also applies vice versa though. As I said in my clarifying post I have no issues with this. I burn out of gmod for like a month before getting right back into it. Even if I'm not playing on the server I'm still actively making mods for other people through commission or for friends in private servers. Even look at my current hours (as far as I know) I have more hours on the server than most active staff at the moment. Even when I asked several players about staff playing the game Nelluc9 and Anxelic, With sometimes Thaye were the most common responses. Though I'm not going to double check the hours on this because from my memory as someone playing almost everyday these are the only people I think of for even "Active" staff. I've sometimes seen psycomike and bg more recently but still less than the first 3 mentioned. Yet with the time I put into the Dev team and the time I still put into the server off the Dev team this is just really disappointing to read the admin say. It gives me the feeling they don't even know that I'm active and have been trying to actively change.

This was not one of the reasons for the denial, hence it being separate from them. It was a general piece of advice.

The worst though was every so often tiefling would wake up and get on the server to give herself all the new items then ping anyone related in dev chat that something wasn't working even if it was working as intended but she wouldn't know cause I don't think she ever looks at the dev work proactively. We wouldn't know either because she would only come in to comment on stuff like signalis still being bald when the server hadn't even restarted yet. (the only time I know she proactively looked at the channel was me asking for JC to test the fix on live but she possibly only checked because she was getting on to make comments on the update that day)

I keep a pretty active eye on the dev channel, and I post when I have something to add or a question to ask. I literally responded to you about melee damage the day before you left, and I was actively coordinating between devs and dink to get the winchester and deagle fixes added (this was more complicated than it sounds). This is either a case of poor memory or pure dishonesty.

Regarding elster, I asked about it before server restart because the hat had been fixed after map change but not the hair. Fairly sure I mentioned this at the time.

One of my main core memories from this was when we added the spraycan. Tdawg4 gave me a perma one while he decided what to do with it (rest in peece Tadmin4). tiefling's first response of course was to give herself one but she couldn't immediately find the perma one after seeing me use it so she accused me of hacking myself one when Tdawg4 literally gave it to me when It got added because I made it, does it NOT make sense for me to have one? Plus she made this accusatory claim in PMs which I should have screenshotted I can't believe I didn't so relay won't have it but maybe by gods grace someone clipped it because I refused to PM her back with such a dumb claim they thought to record what I was yapping about in vc. This really goes to show that there was a massive lack of trust with me even though I hadn't done anything nor have I done anything at this point. 

I thought the bit about you hacking in a perma spray can was pretty blatantly a joke, but apparently not, sorry I guess. You had not described how exactly the spray can worked, so I was trying to figure it out and didn't even know it wasn't perma by default until that point.

For example a teaming report that I provided to tiefling on 11/17 which I've heard nothing since and only found out they were even looking into it because someone randomly liked the video. So I asked Chibill in game "So any updates on that teaming report?" This is obviously just meant to be shittery but I expected nothing less then "we are looking into it" or "we are debating it currently" clean and simple.

I did post the video to admin chat basically as soon as I saw it, but admittedly no I didn't get back to you. I didn't want to come across as ignoring your previous message by only responding to the report, which admittedly again, I haven't gotten around to. So, more sincerely, I apologize for not responding in a more timely manner. 

In regards to the report itself, we don't think it constitutes warnable teaming per the rules, even if we mostly agree it's bad form in spirit.

So with all of that why was I REALLY denied? I emphasis this because of how tieflings message came off that she DM'd me on discord right here . Because to me it reads that the only reason she decided on a denial was because of me sending addons to dink. Plus what I hear though the grapevine she was the only one who really made this decision and it was only over this.

You were denied for the reasons you were given. I promise you there is no shadow conspiracy to keep you out of staff.

Like I told you in that message, my support was tentative to begin with, and this was the final straw that changed my mind. It's far from the only reason, and the decision was not mine alone. Whoever you keep hearing these things from is clearly not a reliable source, which should be easily presumed given your insistence that there is no leaking happening.

Where as what I had sent to dink was nothing we hadn't already agreed upon or tested already (+ hotline miami ). What it shows to me is that she doesn't even believe in dinks ability to be a server owner because dink was nice with his letdown of me sending him addons and it was easily confirmed not to do it again. it took him less than a few days to tell me and tiefling over a week. I find this to be a non-issue because dink responded, but maybe he was flaring it up in admin chat more? I wouldn't know because (ironically) he was the only one who communicated this to me. The admins aswell were not communicating with us at all about how any of the new maps were progressing on being added. They didn't even tell us they were adding trainset and a_grassy_place on that day. They just did it, so no updates on all the maps people have been asking for back and no updates on the maps that the dev team gave quite the positive reviews for (add 67thwaysucks already). So since the admins are refusing to update us at all and its mutually agreed the maps were fine I saw 0 issues in this. She said its untrustworthy but it seems only she doesn't trust dink and he is the good guy in this section.

The point is not the contents of what was sent or dink's response to it, it's that you found it appropriate to do in the first place. The point is that you "couldn't think of how else to get it added" when you had literally been told that it was going to be sent to dink (at least from what I have read, I was not directly involved). The point is that even if we weren't already going to add it, if you suspect that we aren't going to add something (or do so fast enough for your liking) you will take it upon yourself to go over our heads to try to get it added yourself. The fact that you still don't understand how this is a breach of trust only affirms how much of a red flag it is.

Multiple people going out of their way to tell me I won't ever get staff for example: "If I'm being honest deer, our president will be paying taxes before you get staff here". Because you know what I'm really burnt out of? I'm burnt out of trying to help a community that doesn't believe me when I tell it I care about it. I'm burnt out of every post I make getting -1 and anything slightly against me or my friends is also instant given negative rep just because.

I've offered to talk to the people who have been giving you a hard time, you told me not to. I agree that it's gotten a bit out of hand, but I'm not sure what exactly you want us to do about it if not address it directly.

Also an example being this video of what's apparently a "severe" teaming warn, which I also didn't even know action was taken until a lower staff member told me about it (though looking back tief did say, "did completely forget about this, will warn in a bit") . that makes me think there are some heavy biases coming from tiefling.

I'm genuinely confused as to how I am biased for warning for a report that you sent me? And as you said, I literally told you action was being taken.

Plus the hacking report I made before my staff app is still up untouched even though as far as I know everyone is in agreement that he wasn't.

This seems to have gotten forgotten after there was a bit of discussion about it. Will close it later, but not exactly sure of the relevance.

Some extra things that I wasn't sure how to shove them in. I had made a report to tiefling about Jack using teleport to kill me when I had told him not to do that prior. She and Chibill kinda ignored this report entirely because of something he did in the video (least thats how it was perceived by me). tief said days later when I asked if anything happened they had talked to him but I have no reference of if they did that day or when it happened. I don't even assume they talked to him about using his staff commands because they only focused on the thing. I also doubt he got slayed for the false slay he gave me as I never saw it.

I told you shortly after you messaged me that I would be handling it later that night, and I told you that I had talked to him when you asked for an update. You only vaguely mentioned a false slay as an addendum and hadn't provided any evidence of it having happened, so I wasn't aware you were even looking for him to be slain for it.

My report on someone delaying for multiple rounds also received no response ever. 

All you gave me was a single screenshot of people standing around and said "soft delaying". I made a note of it, but it wasn't really enough for me to do much with. Regardless, I will do better at responding to reports in the future.

Also is boombox still the only one unable to make a forums account? I noticed that prot-whatever has been the only new member for awhile and I'm wondering if thats an issue for anyone else. I've not heard from either Ryan in a long time so I don't know if its a real issue or not but hey we wouldn't know because theres no-one to communicate with.

A few people have had this issue, we don't know what causes it. :woman_shrugging: