12-25-2017, 05:01 PM
I found out today she was in the house undetected for 4 hours.
Which explains why there was no snow on the floor or wet floors.
I just keep wondering what if it was a real threat.
I was trained on how to handle a home invasion by a personal friend who is a local police officer.
But its been a while and I did make errors I failed to verify the room was empty before preceding to the next hallway. She was right behind me in the dark.
I want a super bright flashlight for my shotgun now. Then i have the ability to both blind and identify people in a dark room.
While i am physically safe...
Right now im experiencing some acute PTSD which im sure will pass in a few days.
Like i hear creaks and things and i get scared and run down.
Like yesterday... Buffalo Bills football was on and mom likes to shout at the tv for the home town team
Her shouting was really fucking with my head.
and i had to keep telling myself it was just football.
Right now instead of being with my family for christmas im sitting alone at home with a gun 3 feet away from me trying to "protect the house"
The situation effected me more then i realized.
While i was not physically hurt, the mental aftershock is awful.
There is no christmas for me today.
Just me, the creeks from the wind, noises of falling snow from roofs and me runnning around.
Thankfully I'm not the type who would accidentally mistake another occupant as an invader.
Its burned into my head to bark and yell and do anything possible to identify someone before anything.
Which explains why there was no snow on the floor or wet floors.
I just keep wondering what if it was a real threat.
I was trained on how to handle a home invasion by a personal friend who is a local police officer.
But its been a while and I did make errors I failed to verify the room was empty before preceding to the next hallway. She was right behind me in the dark.
I want a super bright flashlight for my shotgun now. Then i have the ability to both blind and identify people in a dark room.
While i am physically safe...
Right now im experiencing some acute PTSD which im sure will pass in a few days.
Like i hear creaks and things and i get scared and run down.
Like yesterday... Buffalo Bills football was on and mom likes to shout at the tv for the home town team
Her shouting was really fucking with my head.
and i had to keep telling myself it was just football.
Right now instead of being with my family for christmas im sitting alone at home with a gun 3 feet away from me trying to "protect the house"
The situation effected me more then i realized.
While i was not physically hurt, the mental aftershock is awful.
There is no christmas for me today.
Just me, the creeks from the wind, noises of falling snow from roofs and me runnning around.
Thankfully I'm not the type who would accidentally mistake another occupant as an invader.
Its burned into my head to bark and yell and do anything possible to identify someone before anything.
