[Dummy Thicc Noodle Lady]

At the moment my vote for your application is a -1
Over the past month or so you have show the staff and the community in general that you are not mature enough to take criticism. You have also shown you are not ready for this yet. You haven't learned what is right and what is wrong, how hard to go and what to let go. All of this that has been pointed out does not happen over night, it takes time and experience to get it right. We don't expect you to be perfect when coming in as a Trusted but we expect certain levels of each stated. 
After this being stated another reasoning for my vote is you did delete your previous application after one downvote. You push people away and retreat within yourself when those who reply do not give the answer you wish to have. You also don't know the rules as well as you state. You are too harsh and feel as if normal speech is mic spam, chat spam, ect. 
To finish my comment off I'm concerned as to why you decide to leave staff shrouded in mystery and concern for what you were hiding behind your past profile. It does make it seem as if you have an unsatisfactory past such as a community ban, ect. I'm also curious as to see how you would react if this application were to be denied: Would you leave the community and seek elsewhere to play? Would you stay improve off of the criticism that the community has provided? Would you delete this application and create again a new one only a few days after?