[§bKiwi The Fruit]

Hey Kiwi,


Like i told you, I wanted to think long and hard about this, and I really have since your first mention of wanting to become staff. So if I may, since we've played a lot together the last few days, bring up some things.

I think you are GREAT, but I do not think you're quite there yet, you mentioned you're a stickler for rules and that you have patience, I have found that when someone brings up any form of a rule you become defensive and overbearing on the rule, I can see why you're trying to explain the rule the way you are, but you don't allow room for conversation. It becomes an aggressive situation which creates the issue of trolls - I personally think you need to take a step back and be less defensive when challenged, it only creates more issues - remember, the other donors online with you are here to help you, let us, especially those with far more time than you.

When to stop inappropriate conversations: for me this is a weird area, because people see this differently depending on who they are. But when someone comes on and says "F u suck my dick" as a joke when shot, you don't get to tell them to keep it appropriate and then turn around and carry a conversation about how you're underage and "selling feet pics" to created a lobby of male players thirsting after you for over an hour. I find that incredibly rude and immature and unfair to others when you tell them to keep things PG but continue to speak in that nature.

Now with all this being said, I really do enjoy the time we have played together, I think you're a very nice girl but you have a lot of growing up and learning to do, I think you need to spend way more time on the server. Right now, you're far too immature but I see the potential and I want you to take this as a chance to grow.

So this is my -1 and I am sorry.

Best of luck

I would like to clarify this situation and defend my actions a bit.

With the first one. You're right, I did get argumentative with that person over the "no false hints" rule. However, there's more to it. I was trying to explain to a new player that, in the event they were to say that they were somewhere that they were not, and a prop in that place were to get killed, then it would count as ghosting. Two people on the server (including the person you mentioned,) questioned me on why that was. I explained that it was in the rules, and that even if it didn't make sense to them, that's how it was. I believe I was keeping level-headed in that regard. I did get quite annoyed, however, whenever the person began to read out the rules to me, and say that, to them, that should not count as ghosting. You're right, I should have stayed a bit more calm, but you had also asked that person to change the topic, and they refused. Could I have handled it better? Absolutely. But I only got defensive over the fact that three donors had already told him to drop it, and he didn't. But once again, I appreciate your feedback, and I understand your stance.

Secondly, I did get too comfortable with the people in that lobby at that time. But, the "feet pics" joke was a one-time thing, and it did show my immaturity. You're also correct in pointing out that I had told people to stop being inappropriate earlier in that same night. But, I didn't tell them to stop being inappropriate until it got out of hand. I understand that you are allowed to make jokes, but the same people kept saying bad things repeatedly, and I waited until I thought "okay, enough is enough." I feel as though, personally, I gave them enough time to cool off and walk away from it, and they did not. Jokes are jokes, but in this particular instance of them repeatedly talking about having sex with each other, I told them to calm down.

Overall, I understand your concerns, and I admit, I shouldn't have argued with that person when a rule had already been established. I will take your criticism and apply it to myself. I just wanted to give an explanation from my point of view, even if it's not going to do much.