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honestly tho, if this is how you actually feel than i’d recommend you getting help or find a new coping method. best of luck

Honestly my life is just one giant cope I'm just riding it out the best I can trying to piss as few people off as possible (most of the time at least.)

I don't mean this as a dig I promise, because I was in your shoes some 7-8 years ago, but you do have some fundamental issues with yourself you'll need to work on. My best advise is to do something else. Force yourself to get away from g-mod, get away from gaming in general if that's what it takes. It's good that you're acknowledging that you have an issue, now start taking the necessary steps to fix that.

Best of luck, Bud.