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And if you do get banned again, what do you think should happen at that point? That's the more important of those two questions : I  will never come back ill accept my ban

Okay, here's what I think then, as per your own thoughts. I'd be fine with you eventually being unbanned (I don't have an opinion on if it happens now or later) if it's under the condition that if you have any missteps at all that have anything to do with you being toxic, you're just gone from the community. If you have any other kinds of missteps, I'm not sure what should happen, but your biggest issue is just being an entirely toxic person, but I think people can grow from anything. 

Call it a community ban. You've said and done things worse than certain people that have been ousted from parts/all of the community for years after, where you've gotten chances to try again over and over. . That's the only way I think anyone should really accept this.