[Lovanatana]

I had fizzled away from the community a while back, but I had kept a small eye on the community while I had been away. I had consumed viewpoints of leadership and how a team was supposed to be in my own workplace (which I also left). When my eye for this community grew bigger and I looked at fine print, I saw staff working for staff, not for people. I saw favoritism, and the second lowest tier of disagreement (ad hominem: attacks the authority of the writer, or characteristics of the writer) being thrown around like bullets flying through the air.

The credibility of people were simply being attacked by past actions, misconceptions, misunderstanding, and disbelief. Angles were not looked at except the same ones. Pride of knowledge was put forth, and opinions were shut down haphazardly, ignored, scrutinized.

This wasn't the same server I signed up to when I first made my Trusted application. This was different, it felt...foreign. Growing in disbelief, I wanted and waited so long for answers of why things felt different. The space between TTT and Prop Hunt felt like a canyon. Like they could never be together. I hated that, and I hated that people had a vendetta against the differing sides. The way I saw this was a family split in two. A family I belonged in both sides, not one more than the other...though my activity was far more in TTT.

Then I saw a post from people that made the home I lived in feel cushioned, guardianed. @Christian, @"[Red]Starky", @Turner,  @Penguinslayer4  ... yeah.

I've had my fill too, then. I have lost my experience as a staffer and I don't feel I can carry out the role without proper retraining, and I feel distant. It's not fun anymore. I've lost too much in my Dinkle family.

Thank you to @"Dinkleberg >:("  for the little conversations we held, and the one we held in the early morning of a day in DarkRP, you seem like a genuinely prosperous soul but I feel it necessary to tell you...

Your server will never be rid of grime unless it has a clean slate or an awakening. And that won't happen soon. So it will remain as it is now: absolutely infested with a poison of a social atmosphere.

I'd like to thank @[red]Moderate_ for coping with my moderation of DarkRP as well. I think in my position, I could have done more, but I suppose you could defend of my still growing age and knowledge. You are yourself, a fine individual. Reflect on what you think you can improve on to better your person.

To @"Prince Nicky La Flama Blanca", I believe you reflect everything that a staff member should be and you are greatly undermined for your great professionalism and respect for the community. I see a great individual in you.

To @"Oh Hey， Jack Here", you were and still are a good friend that I had the pleasure to build bridges with despite a bumpy introduction. I was novice in mind but now I'm an expert, and my experience says I'm glad to have met you.

And to the person who made me stay here and not regret it, @Dildo Shwaggins. You were a warm, caring soul and I'll never forget how you introduced me into the family with open arms. You were like a brother I never had.

To everyone else not mentioned, I hope you realize that you've made an impact on me too, depending on your actions.

Good luck with the server. I wish it well.