[Mother Nuru.]

It feels like I'm always doing the opposite of what y'all want from me, I'm sorry

Put yourself in others shoes, and think from that perspective sometimes, instead of being stuck in your head. I don't mean that in an offensive way, but as in a literal sense. You get so wrapped up in things you're doing, that you don't stop and think about how things will affect others, just the fun in the moment, what feels right in the moment, etc. Sometimes thinking things through is a big help. You're one to jump up pretty fast on things.
That's a good start.
Travis would probably benefit from a personal apology because he is the type to talk things through. I told him how to reach you on discord because he was having issues so expect messages shortly.

Don't think that any of what I say is out of hate, because it's not. If I hated you you'd know, ask jupi-
Anyhow :)

I just want you to do better. You have a lot of potential. You just have a lot of actions to back up your words.