04-10-2022, 12:14 PM
To preface, I'm not going to leave any explicit verdict on whether you should be unbanned or have your ban reduced. Instead, I will try to relate to you for a bit.
I remember when I first started playing Dinkleberg's TTT. I was 13. Like you, I used to play for hours everyday. I'd come home from school and play a solid eight hours until my eyes were burning and bloodshot. As a young person, I was highly impressionable, which lead to a lot of unacceptable behavior on my part, such as slurring, trolling, exploiting, etc. It got to the point where some of this started to bleed through into my real life, which was unacceptable. My bad behavior continued through becoming a T-Mod, as at the time, a lot of these behaviors weren't enforced like they are now.
Getting banned was probably one of the best things to happen to me. I have no idea what kind of degenerate I would be if I wasn't. In the 3 years I was banned, I spent most of the time I'd spend on gmod on things like school, lifting weights, getting my pilot's license, preparing for college, real life relationships, etc. Yeah, it sucked not being able to hang out with the people I liked in the community, but it was for the better.
Now, ask yourself this: What kind of person do you think you'll be 5 years from now if come back vs. not. Is that somebody you'll feel proud of? Assuming you were unbanned, do you think you'd be able to resist playing as many hours a week as you were previously? Would you be able to treat other players with respect (including staff) and turn the other cheek when somebody says something you don't like?
I say all of this out of a place of compassion, as I've been in your shoes. Even now as I type this, I have myself banned for 4 weeks to focus on this last month of school as I was playing way too much and it was affecting my grades. This game should be secondary to real life, and I hope you keep that in mind if you are ever unbanned. I've never personally had any bad experiences with you, and I think you're a nice person underneath all of the trolling/edginess. Regardless of the outcome of this unban request, I extend my best wishes to you.
I remember when I first started playing Dinkleberg's TTT. I was 13. Like you, I used to play for hours everyday. I'd come home from school and play a solid eight hours until my eyes were burning and bloodshot. As a young person, I was highly impressionable, which lead to a lot of unacceptable behavior on my part, such as slurring, trolling, exploiting, etc. It got to the point where some of this started to bleed through into my real life, which was unacceptable. My bad behavior continued through becoming a T-Mod, as at the time, a lot of these behaviors weren't enforced like they are now.
Getting banned was probably one of the best things to happen to me. I have no idea what kind of degenerate I would be if I wasn't. In the 3 years I was banned, I spent most of the time I'd spend on gmod on things like school, lifting weights, getting my pilot's license, preparing for college, real life relationships, etc. Yeah, it sucked not being able to hang out with the people I liked in the community, but it was for the better.
Now, ask yourself this: What kind of person do you think you'll be 5 years from now if come back vs. not. Is that somebody you'll feel proud of? Assuming you were unbanned, do you think you'd be able to resist playing as many hours a week as you were previously? Would you be able to treat other players with respect (including staff) and turn the other cheek when somebody says something you don't like?
I say all of this out of a place of compassion, as I've been in your shoes. Even now as I type this, I have myself banned for 4 weeks to focus on this last month of school as I was playing way too much and it was affecting my grades. This game should be secondary to real life, and I hope you keep that in mind if you are ever unbanned. I've never personally had any bad experiences with you, and I think you're a nice person underneath all of the trolling/edginess. Regardless of the outcome of this unban request, I extend my best wishes to you.
