[Jammin]

Without leaking too much, I think the welcome you received when you became a staff member was pathetic. Not everyone had to agree with you joining, but that is not how we treat fellow staff members.
That being said, I agree with you that you play to have fun. And frankly, if you're not staff, you don't have to hold yourself to that higher standard. Not everyone has to feel obligated to join staff, frankly enjoy being yourself.