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If this thread devolves further into petty insults and jabs at each other it will be locked.

There was a reason I deleted the thread.
And now, I'm not* blaming anyone for what happened, I'm trying to figure out WHY it happened. I'm trying to figure out what made it go on inside me that told me to do it. And no one seems to want to listen to me say that or cares what I have to say about that. These last few months have been super stress filled and honestly, the stress probably boiled over, and I have always used the server to have some fun to release the stress
I guess this time, the stress took over and it gained control over the logical part of me.
But no one cares about how Bman is doing. No one cares about his mental health. But you know, maybe if I had someone who cared about me, this wouldn't have had to happen. Maybe if someone had considered, maybe he needs someone to talk too. I don't release feelings, everything is bottled up. And that's probably where a majority of my problems stem from.
So maybe instead of this happening, I can prevent it from happening.


But you know, it's just a thought. And I guarantee no one will read all of this and care. If nothing else, they'll find someway to turn this back on me.