[EpicGuy]

Fatigue is a real thing.  And i have been hinting towards it being a while now   but now im going to be blunt.  
I'm suffering it really bad now myself but i push on.

I am in a position where i cannot resign even if i wanted to.  We have a couple people who might have the skill level to take over the sql and backend...
I wish i had an apprentice.  But i don't see the capacity needed to keep up with the task because they have other responsibilities or lives of those who i would choose.

Every night i review the server logs for suspicious activity.
im talking about every single connection made.

I talking 2 to 60 Megabytes of text.  Line by line.

You dont know.  i review dozens of logs a night. 
I'm not a security expert,  I'm a well rounded jack of all computer trades   master of none.   
But i can at least spot something and perform the common knowledge steps before anything goes out of control and protect the server the best i can.



I cant do a report anymore if i play. and i know im expected to.  Unless its extremely blatant or he admits   it really hurts my head.   I got enough to think about right now.
Thats one reason why im afraid to join.   I just cant handle reports anymore.
I genuinely wish i had my own rank.   Something that not expected to handle reports if im not feeling up to it.
If i am  Great  then ill do it  but the moderator rank has a strong responsibility to finish reports and ban.   and i just want to play right now.
Check in with people   make friends    thats all.

however
I also feel like i deserve a rank or title that fits my current responsibilities without the restrictions of not being able to handle reports or ban if im up to it.
And i dont want that makes me feel like any less of a member.

If an admin or owner sees my request  please give it a consideration and if you agree be creative..  Release me of my responsibility requirement to handle reports because otherwise i feel bad and people moan so i dont join.

But christian i am going to continue to try to find ways to prevent fatigue for others in the future.
I promise that even your resignation which seems like a grim loss to many of us now....  will result in changes for the better of the server because I am going to fight for changes even if they seem small now WE will improve   evolve and make it better and hopefully you will notice and choose to return.

JuuJuu a while ago had the rank Server Manager. I think everything was fine and he resigned from his position and we haven’t had one since. I don’t think he abused or anything, but I think that rank is exactly what you’re talking about. I can’t find the original thread but I know it’s somewhere on the legacy forums