[lance (2)]

(For those wondering if this is due to recent events: not really, but it more or less added to this decision I was determining on making.)

I'm leaving Dink's. I might stop by occasionally, but I will be nowhere as active as I usually was.

Some of you might be upset as I've made many friends here, some might be happy about me departing, to which I don't blame them. I never intended to make anyone upset or do a bad job at being staff but apparently my toxic behavior is uncontrollable and I wish the best for you guys, so I don't wish to affect anyone else anymore.

It seems like I just can't be part of any community without somehow being a cunt and making stubborn decisions. My T-mod "career" has been a failure and I'm clearly not fit to be a T-mod, and definitely not any higher position. I find it shameful I paid to be a test mod, and don't blame others for finding it shameful too. 
Please know that I never intended to be biased, or "make up rules" and just be an asshole. I did what I thought was best in various situations involving RDM, and apparently I was wrong despite my best intents to do what was right and serve digital justice. I clearly have a clouded judgement and memory of what the right way to punish users is. Truth is, I just haven't been in the best mood recently and this has caused numerous reasons for staff to yell at me or get pissed at me, and all that just collectively added up to where I would become even more and more pissed and irrational at points. I clearly have anger issues, and may consider therapy in the future. I take things way too seriously, and have a chip on my shoulder all the time for no reason.

So, I'm genuinely sorry guys. I don't expect to be forgiven, but I don't want to go down in the encyclopedia of this server as being "that guy". I'm sorry for causing such a scandal in various scenarios, I'm sorry for disrespecting others when I've been salty over the most minuscule shit possible. I'm really sorry for all the trouble and drama I've caused, and don't want to leave this community on a bad note.
I don't do this for attention, and you can give less of a shit than a mouse does. I just want to explain why I am, and was, such a douchebag and why you wont be seeing me nearly as often anymore.

Staff, feel free to demote me to trusted, as me being a test mod is clearly a bad idea; and I agree now. 

Peace.