[Ethan]

~garbage snip~

True, while it was with great reluctance, I said that which I had sworn not to of my own accord, and without duress. I regretted it as soon as it was said, a regret plainly heard in my own voice. In honesty, it was a poor bit. The punchline was weak, there was little context, and most importantly, it lacked heart. What I said, I said without the heart which I once poured into my act.

~garbage snip~

You seemed pretty proud about it in the moment, and were going on about it for several minutes prior and afterwards building up this "big event"