04-09-2022, 10:43 PM
(This post was last modified: 04-09-2022, 10:59 PM by voidzz. Edited 3 times in total.)
I'm not gunning for an unban either, ideally a reduction. I don't expect to be around gmod closer to/after 2023 starts.
For everyone addressing the quick change from my staff to post staff, here's how I saw it at the time: I joined the staff team hoping to make a change, I had seen it as mostly a circlejerk, and I had witnessed staff that were lenient to rules when it came to regarding their friends etc. I was hoping to make a change, thus I joined the staff team.
I did enjoy my time as staff overall, however I realized that the system did not have much hope for change, and like I've told many people before, it seems like it's just a circle of people who feed off of each other and are either enablers or just guard each other no matter what. The biggest issue I saw as staff was the lack of consistency, the rules were set however bans etc were set according to moderator desires, not including the occasional admin approval. My turning point was when I had witnessed a mod (this person is no longer mod) bait a guest into asking to be permabanned, and when the guest had actually asked after being provoked and baited by the mod, the mod delivered the swiftest ban I had ever seen, as this mod was really triggered by the guest etc. I'm not a man of recording, but I'm not a man of lying.
Once I realized that the circle could not be broken, I was planning on giving up staff, until Wrom came around. I fully intended to stay staff when Wrom had joined the server, as I knew that he would be the next staff member, and I planned on training him. However, the admins suggested that I reapply (which I didn't want to) to keep trusted, so naturally I let my rank go. From there, I resorted to a more relaxed, with a bit of trolling behavior. With this, came severe backlash by certain staff, who had always had something against me, and led to an increase in naughty behavior. Moving on from that though, I had started to notice inconsistencies in staffing, such as rules and the staff guidelines not being followed, they were more rather used when convenient. So, as I started in the Kansas ban request, I was pretty darn heavy on throwing the rulebook at the staff. I believe that the staff guidelines are made to be followed, even if the word itself is "guide". I believe staff discretion at a whole shouldn't really be a thing unless its admin discretion, then it comes into other hands. It's a given that I do not like many staff on the server, however I did not go out of my way to make it difficult for individuals, staffing is something VERY easy and I have done it multiple times on full servers alone, too many people take it seriously as if it is their job. With this though, there are also many staff who do not like me, so everything I did was watched under a microscope, and given this, this ultimately led to my 2 week ban, which resulted from a guest complaint of racism saying he wasn't donating because I was a "racist" user on the server, and from a clip of me slur baiting as a joke. Yes, it is too late to appeal the 2 week and that is the probable route that I should have taken, however when an admin told me he personally approved it to be two weeks I figured it wasn't even worth a shot. This is a word jumble and I'll organize it somehow.
I'm not excusing my behavior in any means. It was wrong, the trolling got a little bit excessive for some people who would have preferred not to handle it, and the alt evading was definitely a no-go, I knew better, especially as KaptainLes said because I was staff. I do believe that staff are also able to provide the most accurate criticisms as well, being formerly on the inside of it and seeing potential flaws. I do apologize for my behavior with the excessive trolling and the alt evading, and like I had said earlier and Jammin had noticed too, if I get a reduction I will return on better behavior for sure, like I had the two weeks prior to my permanent ban.
Also, I understand that the community ban idea is an extreme, however I do see it as a possible option depending on what the admins see fit. I'm not the one calling the shots, but if the admins see it fit it would make sense to give an option that positively reinforces the good behavior that I have to have, as if I don't follow through it would be a swift and pretty easy community ban. (Applies for reduction as well)
TLDR: My decline occurred as I resigned and basically got into conflicts w staff who did not like me and vice versa and threw the rule book at them as they didn't know simple rules even at higher positions. Including the occasional staff member who baited me through csay at least 5+ times in a 20+ pop server to say another slur so he would ban me for a length longer than what the guidelines had said as well.
For everyone addressing the quick change from my staff to post staff, here's how I saw it at the time: I joined the staff team hoping to make a change, I had seen it as mostly a circlejerk, and I had witnessed staff that were lenient to rules when it came to regarding their friends etc. I was hoping to make a change, thus I joined the staff team.
I did enjoy my time as staff overall, however I realized that the system did not have much hope for change, and like I've told many people before, it seems like it's just a circle of people who feed off of each other and are either enablers or just guard each other no matter what. The biggest issue I saw as staff was the lack of consistency, the rules were set however bans etc were set according to moderator desires, not including the occasional admin approval. My turning point was when I had witnessed a mod (this person is no longer mod) bait a guest into asking to be permabanned, and when the guest had actually asked after being provoked and baited by the mod, the mod delivered the swiftest ban I had ever seen, as this mod was really triggered by the guest etc. I'm not a man of recording, but I'm not a man of lying.
Once I realized that the circle could not be broken, I was planning on giving up staff, until Wrom came around. I fully intended to stay staff when Wrom had joined the server, as I knew that he would be the next staff member, and I planned on training him. However, the admins suggested that I reapply (which I didn't want to) to keep trusted, so naturally I let my rank go. From there, I resorted to a more relaxed, with a bit of trolling behavior. With this, came severe backlash by certain staff, who had always had something against me, and led to an increase in naughty behavior. Moving on from that though, I had started to notice inconsistencies in staffing, such as rules and the staff guidelines not being followed, they were more rather used when convenient. So, as I started in the Kansas ban request, I was pretty darn heavy on throwing the rulebook at the staff. I believe that the staff guidelines are made to be followed, even if the word itself is "guide". I believe staff discretion at a whole shouldn't really be a thing unless its admin discretion, then it comes into other hands. It's a given that I do not like many staff on the server, however I did not go out of my way to make it difficult for individuals, staffing is something VERY easy and I have done it multiple times on full servers alone, too many people take it seriously as if it is their job. With this though, there are also many staff who do not like me, so everything I did was watched under a microscope, and given this, this ultimately led to my 2 week ban, which resulted from a guest complaint of racism saying he wasn't donating because I was a "racist" user on the server, and from a clip of me slur baiting as a joke. Yes, it is too late to appeal the 2 week and that is the probable route that I should have taken, however when an admin told me he personally approved it to be two weeks I figured it wasn't even worth a shot. This is a word jumble and I'll organize it somehow.
I'm not excusing my behavior in any means. It was wrong, the trolling got a little bit excessive for some people who would have preferred not to handle it, and the alt evading was definitely a no-go, I knew better, especially as KaptainLes said because I was staff. I do believe that staff are also able to provide the most accurate criticisms as well, being formerly on the inside of it and seeing potential flaws. I do apologize for my behavior with the excessive trolling and the alt evading, and like I had said earlier and Jammin had noticed too, if I get a reduction I will return on better behavior for sure, like I had the two weeks prior to my permanent ban.
Also, I understand that the community ban idea is an extreme, however I do see it as a possible option depending on what the admins see fit. I'm not the one calling the shots, but if the admins see it fit it would make sense to give an option that positively reinforces the good behavior that I have to have, as if I don't follow through it would be a swift and pretty easy community ban. (Applies for reduction as well)
TLDR: My decline occurred as I resigned and basically got into conflicts w staff who did not like me and vice versa and threw the rule book at them as they didn't know simple rules even at higher positions. Including the occasional staff member who baited me through csay at least 5+ times in a 20+ pop server to say another slur so he would ban me for a length longer than what the guidelines had said as well.